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drop this brother a motherfucking line yo
KICK IT ALL SORTS LEGIT WITH THAT MOST RIGHTEOUS VERBIAGE

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From:

silberfuchs

[The letter for Kurloz and Terezi is a joint one, written in precise script with little understated flourishes on certain letters.]

Family,

I owe you both apologies. I never intended to end up back in the Capitol, and I want you to know this wasn’t planned in the slightest. For all my experience, there are some situations where it fails me and when presented with the choice between harming a friend to escape or being taken, I chose the latter. Perhaps I’m going soft. Perhaps I always was. But I wanted both of you to know I am sorry for how it happened. I intended to be there for you both in your recoveries. I take solace in knowing you are at least there for each other.

I am attempting to make the best of a bad situation. I will be forwarding any information I can uncover to aid the Rebellion in an effort to use my position to the best effect, but I cannot promise anything. Sending this letter already is a great risk and it is not just me that would suffer if it is discovered, but some risks are important to take. This is one of them.

Currently, I don’t know any more than Sam does concerning the situation, but he knows a great deal. Ask him, as I don’t want to risk putting it in print for fear of interception. Future letters will hopefully be more helpful. Also please watch out for him; the Capitol has made him a cyborg using the same technology that was used on Jet and my world for us as a basis. He may have difficulty in the times ahead, but it is easier knowing there are those who care who will support him. Please be that support where we cannot.

I miss the both of you but am glad you remain there, at least relatively out of harm’s way and able to act more or less freely. Someday soon, we all will be able to do the same.

Be safe.

A. Heinrich

From:

silberfuchs

Brother,

It's been difficult, being apart, but I am pleased to have not seen you on the battlefield any longer. I have to assume this means you're sticking to your guns and giving yourself distance to recover and flourish. From your last letter, it sounds true, though I do understand the difficulty in finding what to do with yourself in the absence of the fight. I'll give you the only advice I can give, having gone through only a solitary period of inaction.

Preach, if you want to preach, my friend. Sing, paint, dance, clean if that's what you want, or make a mess as a form of rebellion. Do what you want simply because you can. Revel in that freedom. Even lead, if you feel you're up to it and others will follow. I still would, though I am hardly a factor being stuck on this side of things.

Sam, while I think people would follow him and he would be a good leader, would give too much of himself. I fear it would leave him in the same position we are, not knowing how to take care of himself again, and the onus cannot all be on Barnes, or us, to do it for him in the off hours, even if we are willing. I worry for him, as I worry for you and the rest of our family. Even so, for where he is now, I'm sure he is well taken care of. Be angry over it, we all should be, but know that anger is fuel on the fire that will lead this rebellion to a worthwhile conclusion.

I've been thinking a lot on what you told me before I was captured, on taking care of myself. I'm doing the best I can, but it's not in me to step away from the fight, not when there are things that can be done on this side. We have a plan to get information to 13 that will allow a final siege and minimize casualties during same. Jet and I are committed to this course, and we envision this war finally, finally coming to an end. I don't care who takes Snow down, but we intend to offer as much of the means as we can.

As for what will happen to us, I can promise you we have been taking care of each other and we will continue to do so after, one way or another. As you said, we are survivors, none moreso than Jet who has worked through what the Capitol has done to him admirably and is back to his old self. He does still have moments of staring into space, but he doesn't mistake himself for decades ago any longer. It's a relief, considering where he was before. My anger at that, too, fuels the fire. They made a mistake when they messed with our family and the Hell to pay for Snow and his cabinet will never be enough.

I look forward to seeing you again soon, my brother, preferably in the brave new world we've been working for. Maybe then I can take a page from your book and lay down arms to pick up a brush or an instrument again. Perhaps we could compose something together. I'd like that.

Keep yourself and ours safe as much as you can. I'm forever in your debt for that.

A. Heinrich

From:

carnagecarnival

[There is a note on the outside of the letter:]

PLEASE READ THIS. it contains much. SOME MIGHT PROVE MOTHERFUCKIN STRANGE. you may wish to throw it all on away. BUT PLEASE, READ IT ALL. i want you to understand all that's within before you get a choice on.

[When unfolded, it reads:]

~~MY D~~ ki

gamzee makara.

MY GAMZEE.

do you remember all that time ago? DO YOU REMEMBER THE TRIBUTE TOWER AND THE WAY YOU WANDERED ROUND IT WITH YOURS EYES LIT UP? you had this smile wide on your face. DO YOU REMEMBER MEETING ME? you told me i had a lot of hair and i bade you silence.

I DIDN'T TREAT YOU WELL BACK THEN. if i got my guesses right about you, i wasn't the first to be turning you away. I PUT YOU UP AT DISTANCE BECAUSE I WAS SCARED OF YOU. but not like how you're scared of me. I WAS SCARED OF THE WAY YOU REMINDED ME OF THIS KID I USED TO KNOW. a kid what lost a lot of people, just like you. SO AFRAID WAS I, DIDN'T GET NO COGNITION THAT KID MIGHT NEED ANYBODY. i didn't think about what would happen if i lost you until i did.

I HAVE MADE A LOT OF MOTHERFUCKING MISTAKES, LITTLE GOAT. almost all the mistakes one motherfucker can in a lifetime make. BUT NOT LETTING YOU IN. not tearing that place apart until i found you. THAT'S AT TO BE ONE OF THE GREATEST.

i remember you. I REMEMBER YOUR SMILES AND LAUGH SO LIGHT. i remember all the things what you was good at. THOUGHT ABOUT YOU EVERY TIME I GOT A TASTE FOR SOMETHING MADE GOOD. i thought of you whenever some human went and mentioned for their human children. I TALK ALL THE TIME ABOUT WHAT A MARVEL YOU ARE TO HAVE COME OUT SO KIND AS I REMEMBER YOU TO BE, EVEN AT THE AGE YOU UP AND ARE.

i've heard things about you. I'VE HEARD SO MANY MOTHERFUCKING STORIES AND THOUGHTS CONFLICTING. i've felt so many things. SOME TALES MAY BE TRUTH AS THEY ARE OR MAY HAVE COME TO BE. you may have a very long way to go. BUT I HAVE BEEN THE FIGURE OF SUCH TALES. i have ventured such directions. I KNOW THE ILLS WHAT KEEP YOU UP AT NIGHT. i know the little things that break us down. I KNOW ALL ABOUT THE ROT. i know all about how our name has come to bring a dread to them what's around us. AND I'M SURE YOU KNOW IT TO, AT LEAST A MOTHERFUCKING LITTLE. but that ain't all what binds us. I FEEL IN THIS MOTHERFUCKING HEART OF MINE, LITTLE ONE, THAT WE ARE UPON LIKE PATHS. i believe we echo in one another. AND I BELIEVE, STRONGER EVEN THAT THOSE WHO BELIEVED IN ME, THAT THERE IS A GOOD IN YOU.

gamzee, i didn't say so, but i'm so proud of you. I'M PROUD TO HAVE YOU AS MY DESCENDANT. you shine so motherfucking bright, i can't believe sometimes we are alike as much. I CAN'T BELIEVE I COULD HAVE SUCH A TIE SO SOMETHING SO GRAND AS YOU. messiahs know i ain't deserve. MESSIAHS KNOW YOU DESERVED A BETTER ANCESTOR THAN ME. i should've told you that first day. I SHOULD'VE TOLD YOU EVERY FUCKING DAY AFTER. i would've given so much to get you back to me.

NOW YOU'RE HERE. you're here and i'm finally strong enough to say what i should've done.

IF YOU BELIEVE OUR LOT TO BE RUINOUS, I WILL REMIND YOU THE WONDER OF WHICH YOU ARE CAPABLE. if your good heart has been broke and crushed the fuck down, i will mend it and bring you standing tall. IF YOUR TONGUE AND MIND HAVE BECOME A POISON, I SHALL FIND YOU THE SWEETEST OF SPILLS. if you're as good and kind and motherfucking perfect as i remember you to be, i will protect you from now on until my very last breath, you understand me?

BUT IF YOU WANT ME FAR FROM YOU, THIS I SHALL GIVE AS WELL.

if you'll consider letting me in, i will teach you everything i know. I WILL TELL YOU EVERY GOOD TALE I GOT. i will be for you whatever all it is you need me to up and be. YOU MEAN SO DAMN MUCH TO ME AND I ONLY KNOW JUST A LITTLE FUCKIN BIT ABOUT YOU.

i have no good legacy for you to take up. I HAVE NOTHING WHAT FOR YOU TO CLAIM. i have no grand token to spare you. THERE IS NO HATCHRIGHT WHAT MAY BE OFFERED AND YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO SPEAK NAME OF YOUR ANCESTOR WITH THE PRIDE THAT DESCENDANTS DO TO ASSERT THEIR PLACE IN THE WORLD. mirth knows i wish you could. I WISH I COULD TELL YOU ALL I AM AND HAVE YOU THINK OF ME WITH THE FONDNESS I GOT FOR MY OWN ANCESTOR NOW. maybe i can tell you all about him one day instead.

THING IS KID, I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING WITH THIS. i ain't knowing how to be nobody's ancestor. I DEFINITELY AIN'T KNOWING HOW TO GET ABOUT MEETING A DESCENDANT STRAIGHT THE FUCK UP AND KNOWING THEM TO BE BLOOD. but i know as this makes me the luckiest fucking asshole this side of the recent millenia, even if you send me off.

I HOPE YOU DON'T. i hope you can forgive both them angry and scary motherfuckers you got dealing with. I HOPE YOU BELIEVE WHEN I SAY THAT TEREZI, OUR TEREZI, AIN'T GOING TO HOLD THIS TALK TO US LIKE ALL TO BE STOPPING IT. i hope that all them downsides don't matter to you. BECAUSE I GOT PROPOSAL NOW FOR YOU.

i want you to be my family, gamzee. I WANT YOU TO BE A PART OF WHAT GOOD I GOT. i want to be part of yours.

IF YOU'LL ACCEPT THIS, I WOULD LIKE TO SEE YOU.

if you refuse, i'll say only that you have nothing to fear from me and i will not allow that to change.

YOU ARE SAFE HERE, IN THE MEADOUS. you can be anything you motherfucking want to be. AND WHETHER OR NOT YOU'LL HAVE THIS OLD GOAT, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE CARED FOR. always.

YOU AIN'T GOTTA ANSWER RIGHT AWAY. but don't leave a brother hanging too long, aight?

TAKE CARE, GAMZEE. take care of you.

-YOUR ANCESTOR,

mediator izzekiel piedsoul

KURLOZ MAKARA ♑︎

Edited Date: 2017-04-10 10:36 pm (UTC)