TRUTH BE TOLD, JEREMY, IT AIN'T A THING WHAT'S BEING DONE OFTEN BY ALL EVERYONE. a lot of motherfuckers know who i was going to turn into. THEY KNOW WHAT I WAS. what i would've up and been. MAJORITY WAS MEETING HIM. they know what i am. AND SO A GOODNESS PURE AND DESERVING ABSOLUTE ISN'T QUITE SO GIVEN TO ME. i don't get to stop hating who i am because it's all what keeps them safe. SAY TRUE, I'VE FOUGHT SOME UP ABOUT IT, BUT THAT'S BEING TWO OCCASIONS.
first being i was going to do something stupid like let a motherfucker kill me so as they could get vengeance due. MY FRIENDS WAS REAL PISSED OFF AT ME FOR THAT. in them cases, i got to remember i owe it to them. MY LIFE AIN'T ALL BELONG TO ME NO MORE. the second was some noise by matesprit. SHE HAS TROUBLE KNOWING AREA GREY. she brought me all to betterness thinking good was a part of my intrinsic. IT TOOK ALL THIS TIME FOR HER TO SEE THAT WASN'T BEING SO. scared the fuck out of that she couldn't see my ill. I STILL GET AFRAID I'M GOING TO HURT SOMEONE IF AS MY IRE GETS TOO GREAT.
but there are times as they ask me to be seeing how far i've come. THEY REMIND I'VE GOT ALL THIS WAY. and the funny thing is for each time you get breaking down, it's a little further what you got to. AND IT SEEMS MORE AND MORE A WASTE THROWING IT ALL AWAY.
there's also being times i want to throw it all the fuck down on anyways. I KNOW IT AIN'T ACTUALLY EASIER BEING A MONSTER. i know it still hurts. BUT SOMETIMES I LIKE THE IDEA OF IT. i like the thought of not giving a damn. BUT I CAN NEVER GO THROUGH NOW. like what i said, my life ain't mine and i can't make waste.
THE FONDEST I'VE FELT ON MYSELF WAS BACK IN THE CAPITOL. they brought my other self. HE FREAKED ME UP OUT AT FIRST. then when i lost him and he came back, i couldn't let him go. HE WAS THE OTHER HALF OF ME, DON'T YOU KNOW? but here, i got my memory back. HE AIN'T A DIFFERENT MOTHERFUCKER NO MORE, HE'S ME AS MUCH AS ME. was a sort of thing whereas some winning got had and some losing. I DON'T MISS HIM NO MORE AND I CAN LIVE FOR US. but i also can't seperate my ownself from how i feel of me. I CAN SORT OF GET ABOUT IT BY MY DESCENDANT. i see myself in him, the best parts. EVEN WHEN OTHERS AIN'T. he's got complication too.
BUT LIKING MYSELF AIN'T A THING WHAT I WAS EVER GOOD AT. i just make as all to pretend and try not thinking too much of it. I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S WHAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE DONE BUT IT'S ALL I KNOW HOW AT TO DO.
then there was back when i had nobody. BACK THEN I JUST GOT ANGRY AT TIME OPPORTUNE ENOUGH TO SAVE MY LIFE. i went on as like to be spiting all them what wanted me dead. I THINK IN MY PROPER TIMELINE I MERE DO THAT UP UNTIL I DIE.
i probably ain't shouldn't be saying all this.
I CAN UNDERSTAND FEAR ON OF SAYING SHIT. if you knew how to sign we could just do that up instead. BUT I GUESS IF WE'S BOTH AFRAID IT CAN'T BE ALL TOO BAD. honk.
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TRUTH BE TOLD, JEREMY, IT AIN'T A THING WHAT'S BEING DONE OFTEN BY ALL EVERYONE. a lot of motherfuckers know who i was going to turn into. THEY KNOW WHAT I WAS. what i would've up and been. MAJORITY WAS MEETING HIM. they know what i am. AND SO A GOODNESS PURE AND DESERVING ABSOLUTE ISN'T QUITE SO GIVEN TO ME. i don't get to stop hating who i am because it's all what keeps them safe. SAY TRUE, I'VE FOUGHT SOME UP ABOUT IT, BUT THAT'S BEING TWO OCCASIONS.
first being i was going to do something stupid like let a motherfucker kill me so as they could get vengeance due. MY FRIENDS WAS REAL PISSED OFF AT ME FOR THAT. in them cases, i got to remember i owe it to them. MY LIFE AIN'T ALL BELONG TO ME NO MORE. the second was some noise by matesprit. SHE HAS TROUBLE KNOWING AREA GREY. she brought me all to betterness thinking good was a part of my intrinsic. IT TOOK ALL THIS TIME FOR HER TO SEE THAT WASN'T BEING SO. scared the fuck out of that she couldn't see my ill. I STILL GET AFRAID I'M GOING TO HURT SOMEONE IF AS MY IRE GETS TOO GREAT.
but there are times as they ask me to be seeing how far i've come. THEY REMIND I'VE GOT ALL THIS WAY. and the funny thing is for each time you get breaking down, it's a little further what you got to. AND IT SEEMS MORE AND MORE A WASTE THROWING IT ALL AWAY.
there's also being times i want to throw it all the fuck down on anyways. I KNOW IT AIN'T ACTUALLY EASIER BEING A MONSTER. i know it still hurts. BUT SOMETIMES I LIKE THE IDEA OF IT. i like the thought of not giving a damn. BUT I CAN NEVER GO THROUGH NOW. like what i said, my life ain't mine and i can't make waste.
THE FONDEST I'VE FELT ON MYSELF WAS BACK IN THE CAPITOL. they brought my other self. HE FREAKED ME UP OUT AT FIRST. then when i lost him and he came back, i couldn't let him go. HE WAS THE OTHER HALF OF ME, DON'T YOU KNOW? but here, i got my memory back. HE AIN'T A DIFFERENT MOTHERFUCKER NO MORE, HE'S ME AS MUCH AS ME. was a sort of thing whereas some winning got had and some losing. I DON'T MISS HIM NO MORE AND I CAN LIVE FOR US. but i also can't seperate my ownself from how i feel of me. I CAN SORT OF GET ABOUT IT BY MY DESCENDANT. i see myself in him, the best parts. EVEN WHEN OTHERS AIN'T. he's got complication too.
BUT LIKING MYSELF AIN'T A THING WHAT I WAS EVER GOOD AT. i just make as all to pretend and try not thinking too much of it. I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S WHAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE DONE BUT IT'S ALL I KNOW HOW AT TO DO.
then there was back when i had nobody. BACK THEN I JUST GOT ANGRY AT TIME OPPORTUNE ENOUGH TO SAVE MY LIFE. i went on as like to be spiting all them what wanted me dead. I THINK IN MY PROPER TIMELINE I MERE DO THAT UP UNTIL I DIE.
i probably ain't shouldn't be saying all this.
I CAN UNDERSTAND FEAR ON OF SAYING SHIT. if you knew how to sign we could just do that up instead. BUT I GUESS IF WE'S BOTH AFRAID IT CAN'T BE ALL TOO BAD. honk.
- IZZEKIEL