IT AIN'T THE WHINY BULLSHIT SUPPOSED WHAT BOTHERED ME BACK THEN. you get that right? I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU THINK OF ME WITH WHAT I'VE MADE TELL FOR. if i seem as like ain't nothing's getting to phase me. OR MAYBE AS THAT IT ALL BEING IS. say true, there's a lot what i can bear. A WHOLE LOT MADE THE BEARING FOR EVEN IF I WENT FIGHTING IT INITIAL.
but i can't handle this. THIS SORT OF SHIT WHAT'S MAKING LIKE YOU'LL LAY DOWN AND LET YOURSELF TO ENDS. that is never going to be a thing what i can take.
I DON'T GO HALFWAY. back when i was a killer i didn't give a damn. NOW THAT I AIN'T, I DO. i can't turn off that bit of me without turning it all off entire. AND ONE THING WHAT I CAN'T BE DOING MORE THAN ALL ANYTHING ELSE IS LOSING PEOPLE I GIVE CARE ABOUT.
i go so bad, jeremy, do you understand? I SIT ON THIS FUCKING EDGE PRECARIOUS MAKING SURE ALL EVERYONE'S SAFE SO EVERYONE CAN GET BEING SAFE NEAR ME. of course i've lost before but i ain't knowing when is too much and too late until it's already being so. WHEN THE LOSING GETS TO BE SO GREAT THAT I WISH NOT TO FEEL. i get to that point of pushing on away because, well, i have to protect myself somehow. I CAN'T BEAR IT, JEREMY. i just can't.
GOT MY GLADNESS ON YOU'RE FIGURING HOW AND ALL. that you've got some considering done and due. BUT YOU TRIED TO APOLOGIZE AS THOUGH THAT MADE IT OKAY YOU WAS GOING TO FUCK OFF ON ME ANYWAY. you don't understand how deep that goes for me.
I THINK YOU'RE GOOD, JEREMY. you're broken, yes, but you're good. YOU NEED THAT HELP AND DESERVE IT. i'm glad you wrote. BUT I HOPE YOU CAN FATHOM THAT YOU'VE SHAKEN MY TRUST. and so, i'll need some time to gather that on back now. NOT BECAUSE YOU'RE SOME EVIL, BUT BECAUSE THIS IS WHERE I'M BROKEN.
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IT AIN'T THE WHINY BULLSHIT SUPPOSED WHAT BOTHERED ME BACK THEN. you get that right? I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU THINK OF ME WITH WHAT I'VE MADE TELL FOR. if i seem as like ain't nothing's getting to phase me. OR MAYBE AS THAT IT ALL BEING IS. say true, there's a lot what i can bear. A WHOLE LOT MADE THE BEARING FOR EVEN IF I WENT FIGHTING IT INITIAL.
but i can't handle this. THIS SORT OF SHIT WHAT'S MAKING LIKE YOU'LL LAY DOWN AND LET YOURSELF TO ENDS. that is never going to be a thing what i can take.
I DON'T GO HALFWAY. back when i was a killer i didn't give a damn. NOW THAT I AIN'T, I DO. i can't turn off that bit of me without turning it all off entire. AND ONE THING WHAT I CAN'T BE DOING MORE THAN ALL ANYTHING ELSE IS LOSING PEOPLE I GIVE CARE ABOUT.
i go so bad, jeremy, do you understand? I SIT ON THIS FUCKING EDGE PRECARIOUS MAKING SURE ALL EVERYONE'S SAFE SO EVERYONE CAN GET BEING SAFE NEAR ME. of course i've lost before but i ain't knowing when is too much and too late until it's already being so. WHEN THE LOSING GETS TO BE SO GREAT THAT I WISH NOT TO FEEL. i get to that point of pushing on away because, well, i have to protect myself somehow. I CAN'T BEAR IT, JEREMY. i just can't.
GOT MY GLADNESS ON YOU'RE FIGURING HOW AND ALL. that you've got some considering done and due. BUT YOU TRIED TO APOLOGIZE AS THOUGH THAT MADE IT OKAY YOU WAS GOING TO FUCK OFF ON ME ANYWAY. you don't understand how deep that goes for me.
I THINK YOU'RE GOOD, JEREMY. you're broken, yes, but you're good. YOU NEED THAT HELP AND DESERVE IT. i'm glad you wrote. BUT I HOPE YOU CAN FATHOM THAT YOU'VE SHAKEN MY TRUST. and so, i'll need some time to gather that on back now. NOT BECAUSE YOU'RE SOME EVIL, BUT BECAUSE THIS IS WHERE I'M BROKEN.
i hope you can extend to me that patience.
-MEDIATOR IZZEKIEL PIEDSOUL♑︎