[The protest comes immediate. It would be more accurate to say she's better than he is.]
You take it all on your ownself, you know. Don't think I ain't up and noticed. Ain't your moirail and it took me all fucking long for this but I do get about some things. At least I got a list of sins significant what make like I should take responsible.
But it ain't about that either, Terezi, I don't want you to leave. Fuck, I ain't ever want you to leave, I pity you. It's just that I pity you more than all that noise. If this ain't being something what all you can handle then I want like for you to be happy all the same. If I make it easy for you what to be doing what makes you happiest then what's so wrong of it?
[But there's some small spark of hope in it now. He allows himself closer. He allows himself not to doubt as fully.]
What I'm trying to do is make it so that whether you can choose me or not, you'll be able to get on out in this world of ours you can understand what's happening. I want you to see it ain't one thing or the other and I want you to be able to get talking at to people and not be bound by these things what got built up. I want... [He looks down, away from her.] you to be knowing who all it is I am... and if you pity me it's because you pity me, not just who you're maybe thinking me to be.
[He sighs.] You say I ain't bad and I can't get to tell if you understand my preach or not. Maybe I ain't bad now, but I was. Some motherfuckers ain't good. But they could be, maybe, if all got really lucky and tried real fucking hard... the way you and I did. Nothing is inherent. Not like that anyway. Does any of this got any motherfucking means for reaching you?
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Date: 2017-03-23 11:06 pm (UTC)[The protest comes immediate. It would be more accurate to say she's better than he is.]
You take it all on your ownself, you know. Don't think I ain't up and noticed. Ain't your moirail and it took me all fucking long for this but I do get about some things. At least I got a list of sins significant what make like I should take responsible.
But it ain't about that either, Terezi, I don't want you to leave. Fuck, I ain't ever want you to leave, I pity you. It's just that I pity you more than all that noise. If this ain't being something what all you can handle then I want like for you to be happy all the same. If I make it easy for you what to be doing what makes you happiest then what's so wrong of it?
[But there's some small spark of hope in it now. He allows himself closer. He allows himself not to doubt as fully.]
What I'm trying to do is make it so that whether you can choose me or not, you'll be able to get on out in this world of ours you can understand what's happening. I want you to see it ain't one thing or the other and I want you to be able to get talking at to people and not be bound by these things what got built up. I want... [He looks down, away from her.] you to be knowing who all it is I am... and if you pity me it's because you pity me, not just who you're maybe thinking me to be.
[He sighs.] You say I ain't bad and I can't get to tell if you understand my preach or not. Maybe I ain't bad now, but I was. Some motherfuckers ain't good. But they could be, maybe, if all got really lucky and tried real fucking hard... the way you and I did. Nothing is inherent. Not like that anyway. Does any of this got any motherfucking means for reaching you?