carnagecarnival: (times collide part two)
The Initiate Fraysong ♑ (Young GHB) ([personal profile] carnagecarnival) wrote 2017-03-19 04:28 am (UTC)

ALETHEIA

i guess that's being what's different ain't it? YOU'RE BEING ALL THEM THINGS TOO. you all are. BUT FROM THE OUTSIDE, IT JUST DON'T MATTER AS MUCH. maybe when things come apart and shit gets to strife. MAYBE WHEN IT HURTS PEOPLE. but from on out, there's more good to be seen. MAYBE IT'S LIKE THAT FOR EVERYONE.

i feel i've asked. MAYBE I JUST GOT EXPRESSING CONFUSION UP OVER IT AND SHE GOT CORRECTING. she's told me there's difference because i changed but she gave me that chance before that was being the haps. SHE'S TOLD ON AT TO ME THAT SHE SAW ME PAINTING LIKE THAT MEANT ANYTHING. like my ownself as the grand high don't paint every damn day.



... I TOLD HER I WASN'T SURE HOW TO BE DOING IT ALL. she wanted me to get on apologetic for some shit ill what i did. AFTER SHE GOT TELLING ME I'D STAYED AND GOT ME HOOKED THE FUCK IN THERE. i didn't know how to give what she wanted. WHEN WE GOT TO MEETING AGAIN, I ASKED HER TO HATE ME. figured then i could let go. BUT SHE DIDN'T. she went trying to show me how for all everything.

THEN WHEN I RAN UP INTO THE NEOPHYTE, SHE GOT LIKE IT WAS HER FAULT SHE COULDN'T FUCKING UNDO WHAT I WAS IN MY FUTURE. like if she had more time. LIKE IT WAS HER GODDAMN JOB INSTEAD OF A FREEDOM GETTING AWAY FROM ME.

i'm a sucker. FUCKING MESS I AM, NO WONDER. i'm a project and i've just used

I UNDERSTAND NOW. clear is it coming to be. BEEN SO GRATEFUL FOR THE HELP ALL THIS TIME. i never thought it like this.

ACTION IT WAS OF THE LORD. choice and all. BUT I THINK IT'S STILL MORE COMPLICATED THAN ALL THAT. and i ain't really think i can explain.

I KNOW YOU'RE NOT HER. but you're a pyrope. EVEN IF THINGS IS DIFFERENT, THERE'LL BE SAMENESS. just like with me and gamzee. I'VE KNOWN HER ALL THIS TIME BUT I THINK THIS IS BEING A PIECE WHAT I GOT MISSING. maybe now i can map this on out.

BUT REST ASSURED ALL EITHER WAY, GAMZEE IS NOT GOING TO GO ON THROUGH NONE OF THAT NOISE WHAT ALL HE DID. from now the fuck on, i'll see to it that the only makara name what gets on association with such ills is the grand high.


AND

if you ever got wanting on for sharing an elixir over all anything, i'd be about it. SOUNDS A WRINGER YOU GOT GOING THROUGH TO BE PRYING THIS OUT. i can emphasize, is all. BUT IF YOU AIN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT NOTHING, AIN'T GOT TO BE NO BIG THING OF IT NEITHER. open offer. HOWEVER ALL YOU WISH.

-izzekiel.

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