this is a lot what be getting a fathom for. IT EXPLAINS A FUCKING TON. puts to world a whole damn lot what got up being frustrating between us. I FEEL LIKE IT'S BEEN RIGHT THERE NOW. for all i've tried wrapping my thinkpan up around it, i ain't never been able.
YOU'VE OPENED UP A LOT RIGHT THERE. just for and my descendant, you've gone to do it. THAT AIN'T SOUND LIKE IT'S SOMETHING WHAT IS SPILLED EASY OF YOU.
defending the innocent, making good. I DON'T KNOW WHERE YOU MADE ABOUT SUCH THINGS ON ALTERNIA BUT I'M ALL HAVING ADMIRANCE FOR SUCH BUSINESS. i think we ain't so unalike so much as that i just didn't use to believe in good people. I THOUGHT BAD THINGS HAPPENED BECAUSE THEY WERE DESERVED TOO. sometimes i was the reckoning. SOMETIMES IT WAS COMING TO ME. i trusted no kindness. I BELIEVED NOTHING BUT THE MIRTHFUL.
i gotta admit, feels i've walked the wire up on this business. I DON'T FIT UP INTO THAT LOGIC, SISTER. when she met me, i wasn't any good. I DIDN'T FEEL A THING WHEN I GOT TO HURTING PEOPLE EXCEPT THAT I FUCKIN LIKED IT OR WANTED TO TASTE VENGEANCE MORE. she riled constant. I WANTED HER GONE FROM ME. but she wouldn't leave. AND THEN IT WAS MAKING SO I DIDN'T WANT HER TO. but i wasn't good sister. I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW IT COULD BE SO THAT SHE WAS SEEING OTHERWISE OF ME, ESPECIALLY WHEN I MADE CLEAR WHO I WAS IMMEDIATE. but she practically fucking built me up. SHE GAVE A SECOND CHANCE EVEN WHEN NO ONE WAS GETTING DOWN TO FORGIVE ME AS THIS NEPETA DID FOR HIM.
she sounds like she was a good person, by the by. THIS NEPETA. if she's anything like the leijons what i know, i'm sure she had about her the kindest of hearts.
i don't want her mad at my gods. IT'S MY FAITH AND IT'S GAMZEE AND IT'S BEING PART OF US NO MATTER MOTHERFUCKING WHAT. but it ain't just that. PUTTING BLAME ON A GOD OF DESTRUCTION? to me, that's just getting mad up at a fire because it motherfucking burned you. I GOT MY OWN FEELING COMPLICATED ON IT BUT UP AT THE END OF THE DAY, THAT'S WHAT IT'S BEING AT, ESPECIALLY FOR ONE AS AIN'T FAITHFUL AS ME AND HE.
and i want her to understand too. EVEN IF IT'S HARDER. i want it to be that when she says she pities me, it ain't just an idea of who she's built of me. I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S TRUE. but sometimes it feels like it is. SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE ONE DAY SHE'S GONNA FIGURE IT OUT AND THAT'LL BE IT. i really don't want my descendant being the straw what snaps the spine, you feel me?
I DON'T THINK EVERYONE ILL ANYMORE. that took a long hard ass time for me to come about. LONGER STILL FOR THEM WHAT I THOUGHT WORST OF ALL. ironic they came about to be some of the best. I DON'T THINK MOST PEOPLE IS BEING ALL GOOD OR NO. i think such things is all complicated. BUT I GUESS I HOLD SOME TO BE HIGHER.
the leijons are good. MY MOIRAIL TOO. lot of humans what's really good. AND THEN THERE'S BEING SOME WHAT JUST GOT ON REAL LOST AND AIN'T ABLE TO GET BACK EVEN WHEN THEY'S HEARTS IS THERE.
i think you're good. I THINK YOU, AND MY MATESPRIT, AND THE NEOPHYTE, AND MY FRIEND WHAT SHE USED TO BE. i think you're all good. YOU AIN'T PERFECT OR NOTHING. the neophyte is cold as fuck and being my partner once didn't lead to good. SOMETIMES A HARSHNESS GETS DONE ABOUT. like what things you've got telling me fo judgments or the way matesprit used to try pissing me off to see how well i could be holding back. BUT YOU KNOW. even with all motherfucking that. YOU TRY SO DAMN HARD. you reach out. YOU HELP LIKE YOU THINK YOU OWE IT TO THE WORLD AND THE DAMN WORLD HAS ONLY EVER FUCKING OWED YOU. even cold ass neophyte took up the shackles despite it costing her. YOU ALL JUST
you care. A LOT. always seemed pretty damn good to me.
I BET THAT'S WHAT IT UP AND IS. i bet that's what us makaras keep getting drawn into. YOU PEOPLE WHAT'S GOOD. like it'll soak up all the bad in us and maybe some of that good will rub on off. YOU TRY SO HARD, HOW COULD WE NOT WANT TO GET ON TRYING TOO?
i don't know. I'M NOT SURE HOW TO PICK THIS ALL APART ON HER. especially without it coming undone on us both. BUT I'M GOING TO TRY AND FIGURE THAT OUT.
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Date: 2017-03-19 02:06 am (UTC)this is a lot what be getting a fathom for. IT EXPLAINS A FUCKING TON. puts to world a whole damn lot what got up being frustrating between us. I FEEL LIKE IT'S BEEN RIGHT THERE NOW. for all i've tried wrapping my thinkpan up around it, i ain't never been able.
YOU'VE OPENED UP A LOT RIGHT THERE. just for and my descendant, you've gone to do it. THAT AIN'T SOUND LIKE IT'S SOMETHING WHAT IS SPILLED EASY OF YOU.
defending the innocent, making good. I DON'T KNOW WHERE YOU MADE ABOUT SUCH THINGS ON ALTERNIA BUT I'M ALL HAVING ADMIRANCE FOR SUCH BUSINESS. i think we ain't so unalike so much as that i just didn't use to believe in good people. I THOUGHT BAD THINGS HAPPENED BECAUSE THEY WERE DESERVED TOO. sometimes i was the reckoning. SOMETIMES IT WAS COMING TO ME. i trusted no kindness. I BELIEVED NOTHING BUT THE MIRTHFUL.
i gotta admit, feels i've walked the wire up on this business. I DON'T FIT UP INTO THAT LOGIC, SISTER. when she met me, i wasn't any good. I DIDN'T FEEL A THING WHEN I GOT TO HURTING PEOPLE EXCEPT THAT I FUCKIN LIKED IT OR WANTED TO TASTE VENGEANCE MORE. she riled constant. I WANTED HER GONE FROM ME. but she wouldn't leave. AND THEN IT WAS MAKING SO I DIDN'T WANT HER TO. but i wasn't good sister. I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW IT COULD BE SO THAT SHE WAS SEEING OTHERWISE OF ME, ESPECIALLY WHEN I MADE CLEAR WHO I WAS IMMEDIATE. but she practically fucking built me up. SHE GAVE A SECOND CHANCE EVEN WHEN NO ONE WAS GETTING DOWN TO FORGIVE ME AS THIS NEPETA DID FOR HIM.
she sounds like she was a good person, by the by. THIS NEPETA. if she's anything like the leijons what i know, i'm sure she had about her the kindest of hearts.
i don't want her mad at my gods. IT'S MY FAITH AND IT'S GAMZEE AND IT'S BEING PART OF US NO MATTER MOTHERFUCKING WHAT. but it ain't just that. PUTTING BLAME ON A GOD OF DESTRUCTION? to me, that's just getting mad up at a fire because it motherfucking burned you. I GOT MY OWN FEELING COMPLICATED ON IT BUT UP AT THE END OF THE DAY, THAT'S WHAT IT'S BEING AT, ESPECIALLY FOR ONE AS AIN'T FAITHFUL AS ME AND HE.
and i want her to understand too. EVEN IF IT'S HARDER. i want it to be that when she says she pities me, it ain't just an idea of who she's built of me. I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S TRUE. but sometimes it feels like it is. SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE ONE DAY SHE'S GONNA FIGURE IT OUT AND THAT'LL BE IT. i really don't want my descendant being the straw what snaps the spine, you feel me?
I DON'T THINK EVERYONE ILL ANYMORE. that took a long hard ass time for me to come about. LONGER STILL FOR THEM WHAT I THOUGHT WORST OF ALL. ironic they came about to be some of the best. I DON'T THINK MOST PEOPLE IS BEING ALL GOOD OR NO. i think such things is all complicated. BUT I GUESS I HOLD SOME TO BE HIGHER.
the leijons are good. MY MOIRAIL TOO. lot of humans what's really good. AND THEN THERE'S BEING SOME WHAT JUST GOT ON REAL LOST AND AIN'T ABLE TO GET BACK EVEN WHEN THEY'S HEARTS IS THERE.
i think you're good. I THINK YOU, AND MY MATESPRIT, AND THE NEOPHYTE, AND MY FRIEND WHAT SHE USED TO BE. i think you're all good. YOU AIN'T PERFECT OR NOTHING. the neophyte is cold as fuck and being my partner once didn't lead to good. SOMETIMES A HARSHNESS GETS DONE ABOUT. like what things you've got telling me fo judgments or the way matesprit used to try pissing me off to see how well i could be holding back. BUT YOU KNOW. even with all motherfucking that. YOU TRY SO DAMN HARD. you reach out. YOU HELP LIKE YOU THINK YOU OWE IT TO THE WORLD AND THE DAMN WORLD HAS ONLY EVER FUCKING OWED YOU. even cold ass neophyte took up the shackles despite it costing her. YOU ALL JUST
you care. A LOT. always seemed pretty damn good to me.
I BET THAT'S WHAT IT UP AND IS. i bet that's what us makaras keep getting drawn into. YOU PEOPLE WHAT'S GOOD. like it'll soak up all the bad in us and maybe some of that good will rub on off. YOU TRY SO HARD, HOW COULD WE NOT WANT TO GET ON TRYING TOO?
i don't know. I'M NOT SURE HOW TO PICK THIS ALL APART ON HER. especially without it coming undone on us both. BUT I'M GOING TO TRY AND FIGURE THAT OUT.
-izzekiel